The containment is challenging for people struggling with eating disorders. Anxiety growing, and the isolation only enhance the obsessive thoughts towards food. This health crisis is experienced difficult by some. This is the case of Marie-Pier Roll, a young woman who suffers from binge since his teenage years. Confidence of a woman who makes every effort to re-establish a healthy relationship with food !
Marie-Pier was born with renal dysplasia. At the age of 22, she underwent a kidney transplant and takes medication anti-rejection life. She also suffers from insulin-dependent diabetes mellitus. Despite his health condition, Marie-Pier is a woman cheerful, but whose days are clouded by an eating disorder that consumes her thoughts for the past 15 years. She suffers from binge eating disorder ; she has compulsions food several times per week with a feeling of guilt that comes with it. In order to help others who, like her, often suffer in silence, she confides with a lot of generosity !
Marie-Pier, how began your eating disorder ?
I suffered a lot of bullying, at both the elementary and secondary education. All the reasons were good for me ridicule, with hurtful comments, both on my physical or my opinions. I have always taken refuge in food to soothe my emotions are too intense.
What is the history of your weight ?
The worst of my crises of food, my weight rose to 230 pounds, with obvious negative consequences on my diabetes. Like many who suffer from overeating, my weight fluctuates a lot. I went from 128 pounds to more than 200, a yo-yo associated with the many attempts that I was doing to lose weight and to crises of compulsion, which followed the periods of restriction. After consulting with a nutritionist, I’ve lost 50 pounds healthily, without restrictive diets, but by improving just my eating habits.
What is the impact of the COVID-19 on your eating disorder ?
The situation of confinement has been very trying for me. I lost my job as a school bus driver, and I found myself with my 6 year old daughter at home full-time. Boredom and loneliness lead me to the negative thoughts that trigger compulsive eating. The evenings are the hardest for me, I can eat lots of cookies, crackers, cheese, slices of bread, in short, a huge amount of food in a short period of time. Suffering much from insomnia, I often wake up in the night to look again. The physical sensation of the belly that seems to want to explode is very unpleasant not to mention the great feeling of guilt and shame after each compulsion. The seizures were daily.
Here with her daughter Célycia.
What do you do to get through this ?
It is a long-term job that I do on me to learn how to better manage my anxiety, which often triggers the seizures. In addition to being followed by a nutritionist, I consult a psychotherapist who helps me a lot. My compulsions have decreased since I am doing meditation exercises and mindfulness. I move more with my daughter too and this makes me the most good. Recently, I saw an advertisement of ice cream that would occupy all my thoughts, I could not resist and I took my car to go to the opening of the creamery. I took a moment to calm myself, aware of my thoughts and I went to take the smaller size of ice cream that I tasted in full consciousness. I was proud of myself, I savored instead of swallowing !
What advice would you give to someone who suffers in silence to binge ?
Go one day at a time, not to set goals too specific (such as losing 75 pounds to date) which can only bring too much pressure, consult with experts, to learn to love also.
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